it always nice to have a group of friends to celebrate your birthday. that is, if you are a teenager or you are in your early twenties. i kinda of envy xiaxue. she is young, pretty, full of life and have a whole life ahead of her.

jon is shopping for a gift for me (i hope) and i am TOTALLY NOT EXCITED about my birthday. it will be another boring day at home or work and that really irritates me. i am grateful that my co-workers are planning a potluck party for me but i am not looking forward to the party.

i am in my early thirties and beginning to feel old and ugly. i am working in a ang moh land and i cannot compete with the young adults in getting a better job. ang mohs being ang mohs, why would they want to give me a job if an ang moh can do it. however, i do have a job, a very stupid job that does not pay well.

to console myself, i look back at my achievements i have done in my former jobs, trying to reclaim the glories which seem so far away.